I did it.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life…

When I woke up today I couldn’t get over the fact that today was the day. Within a few hours of waking, dressing, and driving to work, I was going to be jumping over my first hurdle of my new journey. And by the hurdle I mean “The change” that I have spoken about in my past few posts-



Leaving my job…

The past few months of my life have been eye opening. I have learned a tremendous amount about myself, my goals, and what I want for me and Michael. I realized that sometimes you have to take the road less traveled, challenge yourself, and do the hard thing as opposed to taking the easy way out. I have taken the easy way out many a time before. But this time things have to be different.

Being in the working world for the past three years has made me realize the following… nothing is perfect, you can love your job so much but there will always be something or SOMEONE you don’t like about it, challenging yourself is vital, being praised for doing something good is always encouraging, passing time on Facebook while getting paid to do a job is nice to a point but becomes boring when you feel you are getting up to go to work just to be on facebook – which I could do from home, I am a hard worker and deserve the chance to grow and to thrive, I sometimes underestimate myself and my abilities but know that I am stronger than I think, I come off sweet but I can bite J, and last but not least – you should never allow anyone to make you underestimate yourself or make you feel uncomfortable. There are so many more things I could write but that would take a long time…

As I was saying before, I have chosen to give final notice at my current place of work. For 2 years now, I have poured myself into this job…first willingly and then unwillingly as things became more unbearable. As I considered my current unhappiness at work between the end of last year and how I couldn’t imaging doing this forever, much alone another month or two - I had to do something. I needed to jump and take a risk.

So, that is what I did. At about 10:02 today I walked into my boss’s office and “blindsided” her with news of my impending resignation. I had over thought her reaction in my head much to my dismay. But as the day wore on the subtle hints and jabs that she made, whether intentional or unintentional is unknown, spoke volumes. The reaction that I thought I overestimated… was indeed, exactly what I had thought it would be. Condescending, backhanded and unappreciated.

But, all worth it…because, for everything that I have been through over the past couple years, I realized I am coming out the better person.

As I sit here typing to you, better yet, from work… I can’t help but smile and think that this is the right thing for me now. And despite the reaction that I got from one of my co-workers and ultimately my boss when I informed them I was leaving - I am really happy that I did what I did and jumped this first hurdle.

May this be the beginning of many open doors.

To better things.

Do you ever feel like you want to keep driving?

You know, you are on the road to work, or maybe
to a doctors appointment, or even to school, or what about your parents house and you just don't feel like making that left, or exiting the off ramp?

That is how I felt yesterday. Like I just wanted to keep driving on the 101. I did not want to exit Reseda to go to work. I just wanted to keep going, with nothing in my way. That is kind of a metaphor for my life these days. And as I drove to work yesterday, with these thoughts swirling in my head I couldn't help but recognize this resemblance between what I wanted to do and what is actually happening to me. As the weekend approaches and I realize I have little to do I am happy to be able to relax and take a couple days off. Eventhough the last few days at work have been beyond boring and have been a mini vacation within itself, as I have perused facebook, thought about future plans and made a few personal calls.

As I prepare myself for next week I look forward to the weekend and taking a step towards what I refered to in my last post as the "The Change."And then as we roll slowly into Monday I will have to mentally prepare myself to do what I have been waiting to do for a while....

New Roads and Such

Change is in the air. Some of you know what I mean by that - some of you don't. But, I am going to wait until the change happens to actually post the "thing" that I plan on doing. Until then I will just speak of this thing as "the change".

The past few weeks of my life have been eye opening. I have grappled and thought about things that I never really pondered before.... Michael and I celebrated nine years yesterday. Nine wonderful up and down, crazy and dull, new and old, unmarried and married years. Thinking back on my life really is weird. I have been through so much with Michael - there really is not a recent time where things feel like just mine. Getting married young and doing all our growing up with one another has been a cool experience, but now I am left feeling as if I should of done some of that growing up on my own before we did it together.

But, life takes different paths and this is the one that I chose to walk down. So here I am folks on the verge of a new path and I hope it's going to be a good one. I will leave you a with a few more fabulous picture from our travels to Las Vegas with some of our good friends from this past week! Happy Thursday :)

Time to Scrapbook - Again!

Okay quick post on a Lazy Saturday. I spent the morning going through old pictures. High school, friends, old trips with Michael, family time and lots more! I am organizing because I am going to start SCRAPBOOKING! I am so excited and so looking forward to my Monday night scrap date with Holly, not to mention dinner and Bachelorette, woo hoo!
Here are some pictures I came across while looking :

Mom and Me on our Wedding Day April 21st, 2007

Mike and I in Hawaii June 2006, right after we got engaged!

Me looking out onto the Lake in Lake Las Vegas... just after we arrived for our Honeymoon stay at the Ritz Carlton - I wonder what I was thinking?

Max, Me, Evan and Mike in our Hotel is Israel, Bat Yam to be exact... more like Butt Hole actually. It was Yucky there. But we looked really cute. We all coordinated - weird!

It's nice looking back at old memories captured by the camera....

Think Positive

This seems to be such a crucial time in my life. And I think it comes with the age. This is a time where I, along with so many of my friends are presented with big decisions... and I don't just mean kinda big, I mean HUGE decisions that we have to make, and that will for sure impact our path on this road called life.
Lately, I have been struggling with so many decisions. Many that are small, but more that are BIG and I mean big. I have made myself literally sick over trying to figure all of this out and I think it has finally clicked. I think!

A few posts back I talked about a door opening and things falling into place. When I wrote that post I was referring to something that I wanted, that I thought was happening. And, well, things did not go as planned. So there I was, once again back at my drawing board and I asked myself - is this the thing I really wanted anyway?!?

And as hard as it was to let it go and make the decision to push forward. I was able to close that door and in return another one opened. My husband said to me last night sometime a door opens and you are so busy focusing on the closed door that you don't realize the new opportunity is there. He is so right!

So now, on to bigger and better things and success. Or so, I hope!

Max's Graduation

Two weeks ago my brother
graduated from CSUN.
He technically finished in
December but walked
across the steps of the Oviatt
Library in a graduation ceremony -
which in my mind constitutes
actual graduation!

I am very proud of him and look forward to seeing what he does next. I am so excited for you Max and I know you are going to do amazing things!

Pictures - yeah!

Here are some of the pictures we took in SLO and for Mothers Day! Check out my skills :)

Michael and I at Apple Farm in our room before our shopping day!

Our visit to Hearst Castle - The Hand carved ceilings of one of Hearst's libraries

The start of the tour - The Grounds of Casa Del Mar. The first house built on the many acres that the Hearst family owned.

The Beautiful marble pool. With amazing views of the valley below and the ocean. What a nice dip in the pool that would be!

Michael shot this one - every where we went there were these awesome vintage cars. There must of been some sort of car rally going on in Paso Robles.

Orchids on the coffee table

One of the kitties smelling the sunflowers

Mike and Evan

Mike and Max hanging out on Mother's Day being dorks!

I finally figured out how to post the pictures. Who would of thought that there would of been a small tool box above the text box to add pictures. I'm a dork!

Enjoy :)