The Flood Gates Have Opened

Ever since I gave notice at work… My mind. Cannot. Stop. Racing. With ideas and thoughts and instances and then more ideas and thoughts and things. It is crazy, I mean crazy. But it’s almost as if the cork has been stuck in my bottle of wine for a long time. And I just now figured out how to slowly pull it out – in turn releasing aroma and aerating this beautiful red wine… to breath and now come to its full potential. That wine, yah, the wine in that bottle, it’s my life. Now, granted I know a few things about wine, specifically red wine. I get that it ages in the bottle and gets even better. So realistically, if I was using this analogy according to that fact, I should stay in the bottle because my life as I knew it would of gotten better as I got older…. But for purposes of this particular comparison the red wine does age in the bottle but needs to come out for one to fully experience it and to be enjoyed. By quitting my job I have allowed myself to realize my potential. That there is something to be said for just sitting and waiting for something to happen vs. going out and making it happen. And in this case that is what I am doing, making it happen. So, with that in mind I think, that is why my head is racing - with all of these things. Ideas for random businesses, the possibilities of going back to school, my future and everything that awaits me…. It’s kind of cool.

Not that you all want to know my plan… wink, wink, J but here it is. My goal is to go back to school for Marriage and Family Therapy. I have thought about this for a long time. I have considered options, almost gone back to school to become an English teacher, worked in the event planning field and once again have pondered the idea of becoming and MFT. So, what has been stopping me? I have been scared – to not have a job in this hard economic time and to think about going back to school has been weird after being out for three years, and to take on a new challenge. But I am looking so forward to it now- I just can’t help but feeling that this is the right thing to do and the right direction to travel in.

I feel weird putting this out there for all of you readers (all 7 of you) to know, but it’s good for me to say it out loud, to hold myself to something and to commit. I have had such a hard time in many avenues in life, committing. Granted, I think I have been a wonderful wife, a good friend, a great daughter and a diligent employee – I have never taken a step like this before. To commit to myself and to my future and to my goals. It feels really good I must say.

For all of you that are reading this do something that you have been waiting to do. Stop making excuses and go for it. Because we only have now – after all, what are you waiting for….?

By the way I have been following this blog for sometime now. I read David’s most recent post today - http://www.jumpdavidjump.typepad.com/, and knew that I had to put this link on my page. Make sure to go back a few posts to understand what is happening. Actually come to think about it, you will probably get it from just reading the most recent post entitled “The Eyes Never Lie”.

Happy Thursday!